i’m going to live in a beautiful house with a veggie patch and a cat and chris will stay with me for a bit and he will work on his art in my spare room and we will drink wine at night after eating veggie burritos and laugh and laugh and watch turkish films and then i’ll go to work and hell be covered in paint and then he’ll go back home and i’ll be by myself and read and then my brother will come across and so will my mum for a bit and it will be all lovely and i’ll get only what i want and i will get it all…. somehow i will
